Monday, February 9, 2009
Missing my Mom
I have really been missing my Mom the last few days. I always miss her but it has been really bad. I think it could be due to my divorce that I'm in a really bad place and miss having her to talk to. I think more though that is that i am in Modesto and this is where she is supposed to be. It's also hard because I am living 2 doors down from the house she died in. Her bedroom window faced the driveway and I have to go right by it to get to my house. It's wonderful to see my Aunts but it makes it a little harder too. One of my Aunts looks like my Mom but its funny because my other Aunt has like her facial expressions and gestures. I still think this is where I should be and I believe that it will get better with time. Dammit right now is sucking though. My Dad is having surgery on his nose and they sent him to Tucson so I am really worried about that. The surgery isn't such a big deal in itself but he has a really bad heart so that's scary.