Monday, February 9, 2009

Missing my Mom

I have really been missing my Mom the last few days. I always miss her but it has been really bad. I think it could be due to my divorce that I'm in a really bad place and miss having her to talk to. I think more though that is that i am in Modesto and this is where she is supposed to be. It's also hard because I am living 2 doors down from the house she died in. Her bedroom window faced the driveway and I have to go right by it to get to my house. It's wonderful to see my Aunts but it makes it a little harder too. One of my Aunts looks like my Mom but its funny because my other Aunt has like her facial expressions and gestures. I still think this is where I should be and I believe that it will get better with time. Dammit right now is sucking though. My Dad is having surgery on his nose and they sent him to Tucson so I am really worried about that. The surgery isn't such a big deal in itself but he has a really bad heart so that's scary.

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  1. That is so hard Melissa. I feel for you! When big things happen that's when I miss my Mom the most. My daughter graduating and going off to college was rough. All this stuff with Trina's addiction and deaths has been hard without her. It doesn't seem to get any easier, you just learn to live with the grief. I send you lots of love and hugs XOXOXO

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